Sunday, August 2, 2009

When i got to know that ma roomy is a..........

Hello everyone.....i am blogging for the first time in my life.This is about my room mate.He is a great guy and recently has taken a Bold decision and shocked most of us.So life around him has changed a little bit,although he had thought that it'll become a hell after that step.Being his roomy since last one year,i would like to share some things with u guys and would like to clarify the whole mess .
We used to share a good rapport since first year.Our tuning was good.But it was only in the third year that we beacame roomies.By that he had become a reserved person,Actually his experience with his second year room mate was not good.Initially he never shares anything ,all the time he was busy with his laptop,Being a ojlly person i started hating his silence.Finally, in the month of september we had a Big fight in which i insisted rather forced him to change the room.Later he agreed to do so.But then one of our common friend intervened in between and solved the matter.Thereafter he changed alittle bit but he didnt stopped blogging.
He is also greatly associated with our college newsletter.As far as i can figure out he is among the most dedicated members of the group.He never gives a second thought before doing any type of work realted to the Newsletter.For that i respect him a lot,although i havent praised him on his face.But his dedication is admirable.He is still associated with it.He also has some female members in the newsletter group.Everyone of us in the branch and in the hostel used to taunt him for those girls inspite of knowing that there is nothing between them,Actually we all do that in this age.taunting,teasing etc...we get a real joy by doing all that crap.
So by the ending of the V semester of engg course,i think he probably had judged me finally and started sharing and enjoying with me.So everythng started going well.Both of can feel the Respect we give to our friendship.
He used to have a male pic as his dekstop wallpaper.But as you all know Students of our age generally have Hot Hot girls on their dekstops so this was somewhat akward for me.Infact for all who see that,so we used to taunt him that u are a “GAY”.He always chuckles on this,no other stronger reactions,like no....... how can u think like that. etc etc.But he never stopped doing that and as the time passed he started changing his MALE wallpapers quickly.Sometimes i tried to discuss this matter with him seriously but i myself was very busy in those days..Later one day i saw one objectionable site name on his lappy.So i started making fun of him...but he tried to react normally.Since those were exam days so i left the matter.But later I found that he was sweating like anything.Finally after 1/2 hour he asked me,that not to share it with anyone(that website matter).Before that i was taking that matter as a mediocre.But after that he forced me think seriously on that.Although i said emphatic yes to him but is spent whole night thinking about the same.There were several questions in my mind like,is there anything wrong with him,is he actually a “GAY”.But i left the matter to him that if there would have any possibility like that then he w‘ll definitely tell me first,because i thought he considers me as a very good friend...But he didnt tell me ........After the exams we all left for aur trainings...In the month of june,High court of delhi legalized homosexuality....controversies are still going on that....But it gave confidence to those who don’t have ,to come up openly,publicaly...Actually many western countries have legalised it properly.In india its in initial stages.
Then when i came back i heard that my room mate has publicaly accepted on his blog that he is GAY.I got shocked by hearing that.people started teasing me.People considered me as his sexual partner,but due to some or the othet reasons they didn’t have any strong evidence to prove that.Later when i saw his blog in which he has clearly mentioned that “If someone has got problem with that then he should tell me on my face”.But i think only few has done that.Few has discussed this topic calmly,cleanly with him,including me.Rest are talking ill behind him.They forced me to leave him,but failed abusmally.Then I thought about the whole matter and came to the conclusion that there is no question of leaving,he has’nt done anything wrong.Its all about one’s Perception.
I just wanna ask one qusetion from those problamatic people that have they seen the date of that blog posting.My dear friends its FEB...he has posted that well before the 377 passed.He had taken a bold decision.If high court has got no problem with that the who are we.On one side we claim to be modern people on the other hand we are not accepting something that west has accepted a long before.This is all about human values.If that person is nice towards you than what's the problem...OHHHH u must b thinking that he may sexually harrass you,that's y people were interested in his sexual partner.No one had thought anything about his him,they were just interested in the partner only,so that they can make fun of him too.My dear frns do every NORMAL people like YOU has got a sexual partner(does everyone has got a sexual male/female partner with him .)Its just a matter of attraction.A normal guy is attracted towards a girl.In a similar he has got a attraction towars his own sexuality,dats it.Nothing else.Its not about sex.We should not relate sex with one’s Identity.You should concentrate on your part.Is he still loyal to you,as he used to be.If yes then what’s the problem man.
He wrote that blog in feb,at that time no one knows,but you got to know today only.Moreover he is not like that since 1/2 years.Just think about him.He must have thought thousands of times before accepting it openly,at that time even 377 was'nt legalized.He just want to be the one ”who he actually is”.what if someone tries to snatch your name/personality moreover ACTUALITY from you.I think its high time to be with him instead of treating him like a non touchable person.He has'nt committed crime.He his still the same friend as he was,its just the matter of fact that you know today that he is a gay.We should accept him as a normal human being because he IS.I am not talking about him only,i am talking about the whole community.Thay are as normal as we are.Stop behaving like Fools.
Finally as just wanna say that in whole episode one thing that disappointed me in that he should have came to me first.It was shocking when you hear such things from outsiders.Roomies share a special bond.But still i am with him......what about you guys?If you have any problem in discussing the matter with him then u can come to me first..u are always welcomed,But don’t talk ill behind him,try to speak on his face.

6 comments:

  1. Well Well...so much about me, and that too in ur first post itself!! Surely i have affected ur life in more than one way. Gud to see something gud for MD from ur mouth.
    That roomie bhasad I have already discussed with u, and my aloofness had nothing to do with my previous roomie.
    I am extremely grateful for all the support that u and others have provided me. I just cant express how disgusting and shocking it was for me to find u in the centre of all this. It had never ever occured to me that u cud be the target of others. Never expected this. Am extremely sorry for whatever u have gone thru (or are going thru).
    Thanx for highlighting the fact that being Gay is not about Sex. Its about ur individuality, ur identity and ur freedom.
    Just a few things to clarify. Sec 377 was brough in by the British. HC ruled aginst it, because of all the scientific facts and reasons presented. COz the decision was not based on "perceptions". Old Indian scriptures has enough homosexual references.
    Once again. I cant tell u how gretful I am for ur support. Gud to know that LGBTs have gained a few supporters.

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  2. Proud of you, for more reasons than the apparent one.

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  3. Well its gud to see a blog from pandat nd 2 on a bold topic. I was quite expecting somethin from him on this issue :). But the very fact involving his roomie and my dear frnd sukhi and expressing his views in public is really commendable. Its very rare to find someone supporting somebody on being a homosexual at least in India. Its really a matter that is not too much familiar to the hoi polloi. I think after seeing the movie Dostana only the people came to know abt this thing closely and their existence in society. I came 2 know abt Pandit's view on gay issues for the first time thru dis blog only. But i personally consider it a potential apocalyptic social experiment. I dont understand how can a guy decides whether he is gay. Be in relationship wid a gal n den decide wat do u like 2 b...I m not backbiting or being homophobic. Its just my point of view. But i think this wont change my frndship wid Sukhi..I wish him all d best... nd pandit u did write a gud 1.... :)

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  4. "A potential apocalyptic Experiment"...well, its not an experiment my frnd. Its as natural as anything. Just a request, its fine that you dont understand it, but please, stop propagating to be in a "relation with a gal", it is the most shattering and offending thing to say, at times leads to depression in those who try to act on this advise due to sheer ignorance. You are free to have ur opinions, but be sensible when airing them. Thnx for being a nc frnd.

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  5. 1 more thing.....what about movies b4 dostana....PAge 3 My brother Nikhil, all dealt with it sensibly...rest, go thru my blog, I have tried answerng some of the questions and situations. Hope it wud help u understand things..

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  6. nice blog, quite an inspiration for old men like us who spent the prime of their youth in the traumatic closet debating whether they are sick or not and whether they have any right to be themselves or not! the fact that the new generation is bold enough to come out in public or provide support is really great.

    @ Siddhant Verma: had straight people been in relationship with a boy/ man and then decided to be straight? i believe no. their instinct told them what they liked. similarly we also need not be in relationship with a 'gal' to know that we are not into them. believe me, it's easier to chose to be straight and we, who tread the difficult path do so after lots of turbulence, trauma, doubts and what not. no further experiment is needed. of course there are plenty of examples where a people discovered that they are not into members of opposite sex after being intimate with them. some even discovered that after marrying and parenting child. since the social grooming forces everyone to be straight and allows no freedom for and opportunity of exploring one's choices, such incidents came up. but that makes things even worse and more traumatic for everyone involved.

    congrats @ Pandat, Sukhi, Lopa and Siddhant Verma for your boldness and courage and thanks a lot!

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